Window [05- Forget Me Not]

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 16:27:35 GMT

Did it hurt?

I often find myself wondering this, in the gaps in between my days, my hours, my minutes. Time is now mine, time has no restriction, it is malleable in my hands. I measure time by counting the waves. I measure my time by the rustle of grass outside my bedroom window. I'm living in a dream, Rinoa. It feels as delicate as a balloon. I'm waiting for a needle to send me to sleep. Nurses bring in my food, wash my arms, I am an old man now, but I have a feeling you would know me anyway.

I have a dream, of seeing you in the street, for a moment. In that moment; indistinguishable, measured by breathing, by the beating of a butterflies' wings in a tycoon; I would press my back against yours' and I would, in that instant, exchange everything with you. Fluids, kisses, words, poetry, shopping lists.

All I'm asking is that you hold one memory, one memory that doesn't speak to you of crushed pelvic bones, of tragic costly posession. A small warmth in your heart, of the ice cream dripping on your fingers, the surf at dawn, that one (almost) kiss. I'm so sorry I pulled away. I'm so sorry you hurt. I'm sorry I had to see it.

I hope you're married to him by now. I wish you have a house with white porcelain flower pots and it's sunny all the time. Dust gathers on the piano keys. You are happy, he rubs your belly, and I know it can't be me now. I'm lying here, will forever, watching snow, leaves, the sunlight escape from my arms. Every now and again I will catch your scent playing on the wind.

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 22:17:11 GMT

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Friends only

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 19:49:32 GMT

if you want to friend me (and hey, great) then do. it'll depend if it's a tuesday or not. kidding.

the sun is up, the sky is blue, it's beautiful, and so are you

Window [05- Forget Me Not]

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